I have PCOS, which stands for Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It is a lot of things with a lot of symptoms. It affects the hormones, menstrual cycle, glucose level, and metabolism. I can relate to especially the glucose level, and the metabolism. I am a PCOS sufferer who is also a diabetic. I have always been the perfectionist type so long as I can remember. Maybe it is time for me to ditch that rigid way of thinking. It has held me back; that is why it has become a struggle. I have all of the guidelines and rules and regulations that I have set up for myself. Why the struggle? What is the problem?
The problem is that struggle doesn't come easy for me. However, since when has struggle been easy? I am rigid in my thinking. Having a clear set of rules is good. However, it can get extreme. The extreme being even if I mess up or if one change has to occur then the struggle becomes even more difficult. That is what is going on me and has been for a long time. I remember the doctor telling me on more than one occasion that it is harder to lose weight. He was right. I hasn't been smooth sailing since I started on my weight loss journey. I realize that this is almost the same reflection as yesterday, but I finally get to answer my questions. Reality and change can and are not mutually exclusive. That is why creating a real to life meal plan has been hard. I take responsibility since I don't seem to know the difference between a meal plan and a menu. I realize that though it is minor, I do tend to focus on those little details. If I don't even get that detail right, I get frustrated. That is what has been what is or was going on with me.