The problem is that struggle doesn't come easy for me. However, since when has struggle been easy? I am rigid in my thinking. Having a clear set of rules is good. However, it can get extreme. The extreme being even if I mess up or if one change has to occur then the struggle becomes even more difficult. That is what is going on me and has been for a long time. I remember the doctor telling me on more than one occasion that it is harder to lose weight. He was right. I hasn't been smooth sailing since I started on my weight loss journey. I realize that this is almost the same reflection as yesterday, but I finally get to answer my questions. Reality and change can and are not mutually exclusive. That is why creating a real to life meal plan has been hard. I take responsibility since I don't seem to know the difference between a meal plan and a menu. I realize that though it is minor, I do tend to focus on those little details. If I don't even get that detail right, I get frustrated. That is what has been what is or was going on with me.
I am realizing now that the answer was in front of me, for instance. I am not someone who basically makes the easy things hard. Today I have decided to create a plan and then create a grocery list based on that plan. I did do this and unfortunately, the list is way too long still. I really have no clue how to make a short list. I would like to be able to spend less money and keep a budget. It is hard to ask. However, following the rules go a mighty long way.