Saturday, April 18, 2015
I have finally realized what is or was, wrong with me. I have a ball of fears for so long that I feel like I cannot accomplish anything. I believe that fear is the major enemy of weight loss. I would like to lose over 100 pounds. My goal range is between 195-200 pounds. I admire seeing curvy women. I hope to look like that someday. They are my inspiration. I want to have that body type. I have a low opinion of my body. I don't feel great about myself. I have gained so much weight over the years. I don't want to weigh over 300-350 pounds. I want to see and notice the "bonuses" of losing weight like better health and getting through the door. It may start with formulating a diet and exercise plans, but I worry and fear that I will never follow through. I need to make a realistic plan and set realistic goals for myself. I wonder what do I need to do. I am close to 300 pounds. I don't wish to remain 284+ pounds for longer than I have to be. I don't also wish to remain fearful of worsening health, getting unable to go through doors, and unable to do things that others take for granted.