Thursday, December 17, 2015

I hate feeling this way.

Despite my lack of desire, I want to accomplish being healthy.  My last sentence was a little weird. I have lost weight, but my heart is not in it.  I am taking a risk for I have failed for a long time.  I risk hurting no one but myself.  I feel foolish even writing this.  All I am in need of is a little help and a little accountability.  I have been going at it for so long, I have afraid of planning to fail instead of a failure to plan.  I obviously made plans only for them to fall apart.  I only have myself to blame.  I hate feeling this way, but that is how I feel.