It can be difficult to plan meals and plan exercise routines if one has a disorder. Either it is too limiting or not limited enough. I realize that it can even be difficult for me to plan meals for myself. I have written and made plans for a long time and admittedly, some of them are quite fattening. My weight has climbed or fallen in large amounts of pounds. I tend to have "good days" and "bad days". Maybe all of this strict, all-or-nothing thinking is what makes it worse. I also admit therefore to being too hard on myself. On the other hand, I am also afraid not to be.