Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Reflection about my latest plan to lose weight

Meal: Breakfast
Time: 10;00 AM
What I ate or drink? Fiber One brownie
Number of calories: 90
How much or number of ounces: 8oz. water
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: At least I have eaten something for breakfast.

Meal: Lunch
Time: 1:20 PM
What I ate or drink? Cheerios
Number of calories: 700
How much or number of ounces: 12 oz. water + 32 oz. coffee
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: I ate way too much in one setting

Meal: Snack 1
Time: 4:30 PM
What I ate or drink? Peanut butter and jelly sandwich
Number of calories: 460
How much or number of ounces: 12 oz. water
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: Should I have eaten that before I eaten the fries?

Meal: Dinner
Time: 5:00 PM
Food consumed: French fries
Drink and amount consumed: 12 oz.water
Calories: 360
Reflection: I did eat a healthier portion of fries than before, so I did not eat too much in one sitting

Meal: Lunch
Time: 8:40 PM
What I ate or drink? Fiber One brownie
Number of calories: 90
How much or number of ounces: 32 oz. coffee + 4 oz. juice
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Reflection: I should have consumed some water, even if it only 8 oz. of water,

Daily Totals:
Number of calories: 1700
How much or number of ounces: 44 oz. water+  64 oz. coffee +4 oz. cranberry juice
Where eaten or drank:  Home
Overall summary: Not bad...not bad at all, except I did not always consume food in healthy portions.

Exercise Plan
Time: 8:30-9:00 AM
Exercise (s): 10-20 minutes of walking
Mindset: How it can be changed; different or similar to reflection
Health conditions: PCOS, obesity, bipolar
Equipment and clothing: yes
Reflections: I am just afraid to stay the way that I am
Motivation: I want to be healthy and stay healthy
Calories burned: X=<100
Pulse: Y>=75
Time of exercise: 16 minutes
Exercise once today (including number of sets).

My mindset so far has changed and is in need in continual  change.  Can I keep this up on a daily basis?  Should I go to a website and enter my information?  So far, this is the best way I can come up with both a diet and an exercise plan.  Right now, my mind has been cleansed of all of the clutter. However, I have yet to overcome my fears.  I have been told that I am good at planning.  If I am so good at making plans, then why do I have difficulty following them?  I am at a high amount of weight for my height.  I am also considered super morbidly obese.  I realize that I can do some work myself.  I can purchase healthier foods however, but even healthier foods can be a trigger. 

 How many calories should I consume in order to lose weight, which is my goal?  I need help.  This is quite a good plan I admit.  I also realize that I have placed limits on what I eat and drink but I have also placed limits on what I need to do in terms of weight loss.  While weight loss is something I know what I need to do, I am doing a good job of a failure to follow plans.  I believe that stress about losing weight could be seen as a sabotage.  I don't think that I have sabotaged myself, yet how I have allowed myself to be stressed out about this and all issues,  Now I have to do what I have to do myself.  The reason being is that I have made no progress in the last few years.  I would like to know what to do and where I need to go as far as direction.  I believe that the stress and the thoughts about my weight have probably made things worse than they should be.  I have a hard time doing what is simple and that I do has to change.  I get overwhelmed easily and that is something that I deal with and try to do.  No man or woman is an island.