My weight loss journey

It has been quite difficult to write a specified plan since I am now on the Weight Watcher plan.  Right now, so far so good.  As of right now, I have lost a few pounds.  I am okay with that.  As a matter of fact, I have been okay with quite a few things.  So far, I have gotten closer to my current goal, which makes me smile.  However, I realize that I have miles ahead.  It will be a journey that is or would be well worth it.

At the moment,

At the moment, I am taking a break.  I hope to make another entry tomorrow.

I am struggling

Yesterday, I wasn't so busy.  I just didn't know what to write.  It is just one of those days I guess.  Today, I am just struggling to write a reflection about what to write down.  I struggle and have struggled to create a short grocery list.  Right now, it has been rough.  I am so tired of creating these long lists. What to do, what to do.  I need help.

Break

Break until tomorrow

That is what I have to do

OMG...

What have I done to myself?  I ate two packages of cookies, several candy bars, crackers, four snack cakes, and three bottles of soda.  All of this has happened in a two day period.  I won't blame anything or anyone else.  I only have myself to blame. In other words, no matter what else is going on with me, I take full responsibility for my actions.  How could I eat all of that knowing I need to lose weight?  I am on Weight Watchers and I have just done the opposite.  What was I thinking?  I feel like I have gone back instead of moving forward.  I guess I have to start over again.

Being Honest

OMG...

I have a good job of sabotaging myself.  I have a problem with overeating and failing to put all of the food that I have down.  I needed to learn my lesson today, but it seems that I have nothing to put down.  I was depressed last week and now I have come to realize that I am even more depressed. Changes have to be made if I wish to lose weight and spend whatever money I have in order to stay on the program.  As those who read this may know, I am on the Weight Watchers program.  I have every reason to change.  I have read about an actor and other who have died due to complications of diabetes.  As a diabetic, I have come to realize that I need to take this condition more seriously, or I will suffer from complications.  Diabetes can become progressively worse over time; I don't want that to happen to me.   Sadly, it took me just seconds to minutes ago about the seriousness of why I need to eat sensibly, moderately, and healthy. I need to lose weight.  The issue is why?  Why do I make it harder on myself?  I wish I knew the answer to that question.

Reflection about WW restults for 6/17/17

Breakfast
Soft wheat toast with chocolate-hazelnut spread
black coffee
Total points: 12

Lunch
Extra Large Biscuits (3)
Sweet potato (1/2 cup)
Total points: 24

Dinner
Extra Large Biscuits (2)
Total points:  17


Snacks
1/3 cup raisins
canned pineapple
apple
orange
Total Points  8

Total points:  64

I only have 3 weekly points left.  I also have little patience for error.  I saw myself in the mirror and I have come to realize that I do complain.  I complain a lot.  I am a whiny person who has been considered annoying and that may be true.  I have gotten lazy over the years and I really need to lose weight.  I realize that those 3 points have become a wake up call.  I realize that the fruits, vegetables, and whole grains are what is necessary to lose weight and keep it up.  Eating too many processed foods have done me no good.  I am now on Weight Watchers and it is time that I need to stop making promises I cannot keep.