How I am doing?

I am doing so much better the past two days.  However, I have a long day to go.  I will be okay though.  

I have a few questions for myself...

I have not done so, but I spent some time creating a schedule for tomorrow.  I did so because I have to overcome the daily grind.  I live a rather monotonous life and I realize that I have become obsessed with my weight.  Sadly, I have not become "obsessed" enough when it comes to my health and doing something about it.  I am just a young woman who have grown tired.  My entries have become about this, that, and the other.  I have grown tired with becoming healthy instead of going out there and just taking steps into becoming healthy.  Well, with Weight Watchers, I want to quit.  I am hundreds of points behind and I need help.  I still have a mentality that hasn't been of help at all.  I am ashamed of my WW results.  I stopped caring.  I want to stop being frustrated.  Where did it all start and how can I overcome it?

Taking things too lightly

I am not sure.  What does it mean to not take something seriously?  I have been told seriously that I haven't been taking things seriously.  This would be about my health and specifically diabetes and being overweight.  Ouch.  In my mind, I have been taking things seriously, but on the outside, it is as if the proof is in the pudding.  I have not been taking things seriously.  I am over 100 points outside what I am supposed to consume, food and drink, during the course of a day.  Yes, that would be a sign of someone not taking it seriously, at least not seriously.  Why?  I struggle.  I have allowed myself to struggle.  Yes, losing weight is hard, but I have struggled to lose weight for over a decade now.  I am still the same weight range for over a decade and that has been a struggle just thinking about it.  I realize that I have approached things the wrong way.  It doesn't help that I still have a diet mentality and I binge eat.  So, how do I overcome those things?  Where do I begin?

Back in the day, I would have

A little piece of fruit but now a barbeque.  I am 80 points "behind" meaning I have no extra points left.  I will not quit.  I am tempted to, but I won't do so.

My journey on WW

Today, I lost a few pounds.  I believe that a little movement and a lot of fruit do a body good.  I have a long way to go, but being on Weight Watchers has taught me a lot of things.  One thing it has taught me is that just because something is hard doesn't have to mean it should remain hard, thus making it impossible.  I have learned that losing weight is hard, but it can be done.  For me, it will take a while, but it will be worth it.

My weight loss journey

It has been quite difficult to write a specified plan since I am now on the Weight Watcher plan.  Right now, so far so good.  As of right now, I have lost a few pounds.  I am okay with that.  As a matter of fact, I have been okay with quite a few things.  So far, I have gotten closer to my current goal, which makes me smile.  However, I realize that I have miles ahead.  It will be a journey that is or would be well worth it.

At the moment,

At the moment, I am taking a break.  I hope to make another entry tomorrow.